How am I doing?

It's hard to describe. I've never experienced this kind of grief before. I still cry, not all the time, but maybe once every 3 or 4 hours, a thought will hit me and I'll cry just a little bit. Then a little while later, I'll be laughing and in a good mood. I'm not doing much housework, not much work and not much school. I'm just not capable of making myself care about it. Although I really want the house cleaned up, I can't motivate myself to do much of it. I do a little bit here and there. I've been watching more TV than usual, playing the Sims more than usual. I've wanted to do more Mad Libs and board games with the kids and I really want them to go pretty much everywhere with me, because if I get in the car alone, it's worse. I've got some decisions to make but I've been procrastinating about them. I have been trying to get my mom scheduled with a doctor for her back and made several phone calls also regarding my son's ankle. I don't know if he'll have to have surgery yet, but I suspect so. They should call back tomorrow and let me know. He went to a youth retreat this weekend and I attended a couple of the events that the parents were invited to. That was kind of neat. I did see a woman I think I went to school with and she said Hi to me and used my name and I have no idea who she was. Sigh. I hate forgetting people.

Anyway, that's how I am doing.